This week the "Gal in the Glass" spoke to me in a different way than before; she got to me on a different level. What normally stands out to me, that I’m pleased to be able to say, is that I can look at myself in the eye and she is my friend. I don’t know if I could always say that, but now I like the gal in the mirror. I know she’s a learning and evolving being. She’s a loving wife, daughter, and sister. She always tries her best to be a wonderful person.
What stood out this week was the last part:
“You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years, and gets pats on your back as you pass. But your final reward will be heartache and tears if you’ve cheated the gal in the glass.”
The way I understood that this week is: “you can be a great and dedicated employee, but your final reward will be heartache and tears if you’re not doing what you want to do.”
I am definitely keeping myself stuck at the fork in the road, and I know that I want to choose to follow my heart. But how do you quit your job? How do you tell them ‘I’m sorry to let you down but I’m leaving to follow my bliss’? How do you walk away without feeling guilty?
Is this just another example of mud on my Buddha? Is this just another example of my unwillingness to put my dreams (myself) first? It’s this duality in me that is heartache and tears!
And then also this week we took out ‘will’ from Scroll III. After one of my reads I was grabbing my stuff to head to work and I was repeating out loud “I persist. I win. I persist. I win. I persist. I win.” Something in me shifted. It started coming out “I persist so I win”. “I win because I persist.” And I got it on a different level too. It’s not “I persist Period. I win Period.” In my persistence is the winning. It’s not I win and then it’s the end. It’s our goals are always changing, growing, evolving, and as long as I am persistent in walking towards my goals, and I am persistently having dreams and goals, I win!
It’s not the getting of the goals that is the win. Winning is moment to moment living for your dreams. Winning is in every step. Winning is in the persistent knowing that I am part of the Whole and that I can be all that I will to be because I am already all that ever was, is and will be.
We are persistently winning because that’s who we are.
We’ve already won.
We are all ONE.